Have you ever had one of those months? I hope not because feeling under the weather really does suck monkey balls or so I say. The past two months has been one of aggravation for me. I'm generally a very poppy person. I'm like a bat outa hell, moving too and fro-- doing this and that. I'm supermom on Starbucks Expresso and able to do feats no normal rational woman should be able to...Until I began having SVT episodes.
Going to the cardiologist and wearing a monitor for a month wasn't fun. Neither were the episodes happening to me out of no where, no warning, whether I was driving or sitting at home reading.
I'm not a person to take meds but have been for the past six weeks. I've never felt so run down in my life. I went from writing 3k a day to writing 5 k a week. Everyone is entitled to a bad month but darn it all. I have deadlines and stories that need to be written. My brain is in hiatus and my body refuses to stay awake. I have the sleepies for 20 hours out of the 24 in a day.
This is so not normal or me. I wrote yesterday that I didn't want to write. Wowza who is this impostor in my body and where is the woman who enjoys dreaming stories while asleep or weaving stories while awake.
I'm here! Somewhere buried under the suffocating sludge called my brain. Finally this week I'm back to writing 2k a day. I might even have a 4k day in me or so I hope. I have a deadline to meet in a few days.
This trip down sickness road has been utter hell. I don't know how heart patients handle what I'd call a life altering change. I will pray harder for those to feel better. I believe I took my health for granted before. Said I'd make changes when my health plummeted. I stopped working out religiously a few years ago. Cut out major walking or running three years ago. This situation reminded me to get my tail in gear and cut out the junk. I may be sick but I've lost six pounds in six weeks. All by cutting out unhealthy snacking, soda, coffee and chocolate.
In the end when I go to the Arythmiologist I hope to be able to have a procedure done to stop the SVT for life, but I won't go back to my bad eating habits. This feeling poor is no joke and I've been scared straight.
9 comments:
Take care of yourself! Nothing is more important. The writing muse will return and things will get better.
Stress added to health issues makes us worse...slow down and to what needs to be done to feel better!
Oh Hales, you poor thing! Be careful with your health, hon. And don't worry about the writing. When you're feeling great again, it'll flow. Use this down time to think of plots and perfect them.
Thanks ladies. The muse is here my brain has checked out! I had atalk with the specialist and I'm having the procedure done hopefully tomorrow right in time to recover before Vegas.
Hales, I'm sorry you've had such a tough month. I hope it gets better soon. It happens, but it won't last. Thank goodness, the doctors know what the problem is. Get well soon.
So sorry you're having so much trouble, and may the procedure help enormously! I know a little of how you feel. Went through a four month's slump when my husband died. You WILL pull out of it and enjoy writing again..
Rest, read, relax and remember--seriously, use this time to reflect and figure out what you want to do next. Hope all goes well with the procedure and you enjoy Vegas:)
Hales this was sad to read, but know that your talent, discipline and creativity will roar back when you revive your vitality.
It sounds like you're on the right path. I wish you well. Please keep us updated
XXOO Kat
Thanks ladies. It's really hard since I'm so poppy to not have any energy. I"m not in lifethreatening danger but the episodes are known to be life altering depending on how they're dealt with. I'll ding when I know when the procedure is. I'm sure they're doing it tomorrow the specialist is thinking he will be. He wants me feelin good to go before Vegas if he can.
wow! take care of yourself! eat right and exercise and drink a beer daily! (I swear it it good for you)
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