Have you ever had one of those months? I hope not because feeling under the weather really does suck monkey balls or so I say. The past two months has been one of aggravation for me. I'm generally a very poppy person. I'm like a bat outa hell, moving too and fro-- doing this and that. I'm supermom on Starbucks Expresso and able to do feats no normal rational woman should be able to...Until I began having SVT episodes.
Going to the cardiologist and wearing a monitor for a month wasn't fun. Neither were the episodes happening to me out of no where, no warning, whether I was driving or sitting at home reading.
I'm not a person to take meds but have been for the past six weeks. I've never felt so run down in my life. I went from writing 3k a day to writing 5 k a week. Everyone is entitled to a bad month but darn it all. I have deadlines and stories that need to be written. My brain is in hiatus and my body refuses to stay awake. I have the sleepies for 20 hours out of the 24 in a day.
This is so not normal or me. I wrote yesterday that I didn't want to write. Wowza who is this impostor in my body and where is the woman who enjoys dreaming stories while asleep or weaving stories while awake.
I'm here! Somewhere buried under the suffocating sludge called my brain. Finally this week I'm back to writing 2k a day. I might even have a 4k day in me or so I hope. I have a deadline to meet in a few days.
This trip down sickness road has been utter hell. I don't know how heart patients handle what I'd call a life altering change. I will pray harder for those to feel better. I believe I took my health for granted before. Said I'd make changes when my health plummeted. I stopped working out religiously a few years ago. Cut out major walking or running three years ago. This situation reminded me to get my tail in gear and cut out the junk. I may be sick but I've lost six pounds in six weeks. All by cutting out unhealthy snacking, soda, coffee and chocolate.
In the end when I go to the Arythmiologist I hope to be able to have a procedure done to stop the SVT for life, but I won't go back to my bad eating habits. This feeling poor is no joke and I've been scared straight.